Do You Know How Much I Love You?

Still. 7 months now, almost.

Apr 8
DO you know how much I love you?

This is it. This is the last post for this blog, that’s my request from you. You don’t have to delete it, but please don’t post anything else. We made it almost five months. Longer than five if you count the week and a half before. That’s a lot I suppose. I was hoping for longer, as anyone would. Just so you know, I wouldn’t take back a single moment, a single word. They were the happiest months of my life. You pulled me from the dark and taught me the sun was always there. I appreciate that, so very much, but right now I’m confused and I’m hurt and I don’t know if that’s enough. My heart hurts, its broken, something we both thought would never happen. I mean..I guess you knew at some point, but I know you didn’t mean to. I understand what you did, why you did it, don’t get me wrong. I know there are some things that shine through everything else. I know you’re still basically the same person. I know I still love you. I just don’t trust you. And that’s something I really need, almost more than anything. I’ve told you things no one else knows, things I’m afraid of, things I’m ashamed of and I feel so betrayed. I know you were scared, I would have been to, but after all those conversations, all the times I told you it really wouldn’t/didn’t matter, I wish you had believed me enough to tell me. I’m not saying I would have reacted differently, but I don’t think either of us would hurt so bad, and I’d be ready to take you back a lot sooner. I missed my ‘good morning princess’ this morning. I missed my goodnight. I missed smiling and laughing and just being happy because I could be. It hasn’t even been a whole day and this is crippling me. I invested so much, I know you did too, and I hate seeing it shatter like this. I’m not going to be rude or not talk to you, that would be wrong of me, but I need you to understand that every so often I need to take a step back and breathe for myself. I can’t be exactly the same with you anymore. I have to cautious and guarded. Maybe someday we can figure these things out and life will get better, but that takes a lot of time. Time and effort. It’s not just on your part, but on mine as well. Thank you for giving me the time we had, and for making me incredibly happy. You did help shape me, my world, everything. Don’t ever forget that I love(d) you.

-Jennifer.

Feb 9
The hands of time don’t stop for anyone;;

I am sorry.
I love you forever.
No matter what

Feb 8
To Infinity and Beyond.
This is post number three hundred.
Woo.
I love you Josh.
I like that tattoo.
I wonder if she has nipple rings xD
Thanks for making me laugh when I’m sick(:
Feb 6

This is post number three hundred.
Woo.
I love you Josh.
I like that tattoo.
I wonder if she has nipple rings xD
Thanks for making me laugh when I’m sick(:

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Today will be a good cuddle day. Until then, back to sleep.

Feb 5
I don’t say I love you enough.
Feb 5

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Feb 5

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Can we watch thunderstorms together?
Feb 5

Can we watch thunderstorms together?

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Feb 4

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flirtingwiththedevil-:


Long Distant Relationships.
   People say:
You’ve never even met them.
They could be cheating on you right now.
How can you love someone that you only see on tokbox or tinychat.
You’re not really sleeping with them, you’re sleeping on the phone with them.
“You’ll find someone better in your distance.”
Well I think it’s cute if people can maintain a distant relationship without giving up cause people say, “they’re cheating on you.” Thats how you know it’s a real relationship, especially cause theres so much trust. To be honest, you don’t even have to see someone to love someone. If someone can make you laugh and feel butterflies through a camera, then it’s real love because that means that even through camera, phone, or ims, they could still love each other through all of that.

THISSSSSSS^^^^^^
Feb 4

flirtingwiththedevil-:

Long Distant Relationships.

   People say:

  • You’ve never even met them.
  • They could be cheating on you right now.
  • How can you love someone that you only see on tokbox or tinychat.
  • You’re not really sleeping with them, you’re sleeping on the phone with them.
  • “You’ll find someone better in your distance.”

Well I think it’s cute if people can maintain a distant relationship without giving up cause people say, “they’re cheating on you.” Thats how you know it’s a real relationship, especially cause theres so much trust. To be honest, you don’t even have to see someone to love someone. If someone can make you laugh and feel butterflies through a camera, then it’s real love because that means that even through camera, phone, or ims, they could still love each other through all of that.

THISSSSSSS^^^^^^

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